Widow: to deprive of something greatly valued or needed.

Being a widow with young children, this definition truly best describes me.  I found it today in the Merriam-Webster's dictionary.   I was 35 when Mick died.  Our children were 8,6, and 5 years of age.  He became intensely ill two years prior.  Being a widow I am deprived of a Father for my children, a friend, a lover and cohort.  Mick was so incredibly generous, funny, smart, caring and always so supportive.  He was so very needed.  I hate that I did not say this enough to him.  I regret the missed opportunities to say what a great father and husband he was and how he made my life so much better.
So now ten years have passed and I have a house of teenagers.  They are wonderful, smart, giving, talented teens.  Still, teenagers that need and miss their Dad.  It is always there.  Their hunger to have Dad at a tennis match, soccer games,  art show, birthday, Christmas, vacation or simply by them as they watch t.v.  Deprivation; Loss is this all that remains for a Widow's view?  For me it is not the sum of my view but continually a part of my view.